It was right before my son started to show signs of Autism that I had the most realistic dream..
My son and I were walking on a sunny day and all of a sudden the weather changed. A huge twister came over us and swept us up.. I could see the air being taken from him. I started to panic and could barely breathe and I looked up and saw the top of the funnel saw the blue sky above and heard a voice come over me that said “you have to remain calm or he will never make it. You have to breathe so you can give him air.” I then began to breathe, felt calmness that we were going to be okay and I woke up.
I cannot explain to you how vivid and real it felt, but I swear it was something so extraordinary that to this day I get teary eyed when I think about it or talk about it. It was like I already knew something was happening and I was being prepared.
After that dream whenever I feel I can’t go on or feel like I’m going to lose it or I can’t find an ounce of patience the dream pops up in my head. The voice that day, I’m not sure whose it was but I know it was not a voice I heard before and the calmness I felt after it spoke was unimaginable. I believe it was an angel helping me. Whenever I feel tired or sad that my family has to go through things others do not or what my son has to endure the dream always pops up in my head and I will tell you my faith in general has grown stronger.
No matter how hard it is on a day to day basis and there are days I beat myself up for making or thinking I made a wrong choice or having anxiety over making the next choice and hearing people’s opinions, getting texts from the school on things he is doing that aren’t so great it’s as if something inside of me and more than me, knows I need help and then I remember…Oh yeah, I have to breathe so I can give him air and then I become balanced again.
I have been going through a lot lately and making a lot of decisions and there has been a lot of changes and I was once again reminded.. But this time I thought I would share it with all of you with the hope that it will bring you back, maybe calm and ground you the way it does me.. So if you are at your wits end with schools, IEP’s, home life, melt downs, chanting, doctors, therapies or in my case 50 million singing toys singing all at once I say it to you….You have to remain calm because they will never make it without you… You have to breathe so you can give them air…. Stay Strong
My son and I were walking on a sunny day and all of a sudden the weather changed. A huge twister came over us and swept us up.. I could see the air being taken from him. I started to panic and could barely breathe and I looked up and saw the top of the funnel saw the blue sky above and heard a voice come over me that said “you have to remain calm or he will never make it. You have to breathe so you can give him air.” I then began to breathe, felt calmness that we were going to be okay and I woke up.
I cannot explain to you how vivid and real it felt, but I swear it was something so extraordinary that to this day I get teary eyed when I think about it or talk about it. It was like I already knew something was happening and I was being prepared.
After that dream whenever I feel I can’t go on or feel like I’m going to lose it or I can’t find an ounce of patience the dream pops up in my head. The voice that day, I’m not sure whose it was but I know it was not a voice I heard before and the calmness I felt after it spoke was unimaginable. I believe it was an angel helping me. Whenever I feel tired or sad that my family has to go through things others do not or what my son has to endure the dream always pops up in my head and I will tell you my faith in general has grown stronger.
No matter how hard it is on a day to day basis and there are days I beat myself up for making or thinking I made a wrong choice or having anxiety over making the next choice and hearing people’s opinions, getting texts from the school on things he is doing that aren’t so great it’s as if something inside of me and more than me, knows I need help and then I remember…Oh yeah, I have to breathe so I can give him air and then I become balanced again.
I have been going through a lot lately and making a lot of decisions and there has been a lot of changes and I was once again reminded.. But this time I thought I would share it with all of you with the hope that it will bring you back, maybe calm and ground you the way it does me.. So if you are at your wits end with schools, IEP’s, home life, melt downs, chanting, doctors, therapies or in my case 50 million singing toys singing all at once I say it to you….You have to remain calm because they will never make it without you… You have to breathe so you can give them air…. Stay Strong
